#(maybe i havent been diagnosed yet)

[beenovel]

I am so used to being the person at the gathering with all the energy, rushing around and helping and now I'm having to be slow and gentle with my body and it is very hard and very new to me

[astraltoon]

if I had the same ability to write fictional stories the same was I can write my entire irl backstory when someone im rly comfortable with Did Not Ask I would be an unstoppable storyteller

alas, adhd

[whateveriscatchy]

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[silentstaresfanficandfanart]

guys i freaking did it fraeking did self therapy so i could edit this ritsu into the image, ensemble stars CAN be good for your mental health see! This was just so freaking ritsu-core I had to sit down and hardcore speedrun through trying to process some trauma so id stop getting flashbacks during this, its uh, not 100% BUT my flashbacks decreased in severity and frequency enough i could finish the piece without making myself miserable explanation for what i did below

Id do a below the cut thing but i cant figure out how that works so sorry for the long post but i figured i should share it since it provided me relief so freaking fast-? (again im not cured but ...it helped.)

(I sat down, processed my trauma by going over what i learned from my traumatic experience and not shying away from the things i wanted to avoid because well they were making me have flashbacks, carefully going over what i learned from it in detail that allowed me to regain some control over how the situation affected me and how i handle situations going forward and how it changed my view of the world, and then i went over in detail how i would handle it if a similar situation came up and what little i can actually do to prevent it, while also assuring myself that its okay that theres a certain degree of uncertainty but that its a very rare and unlikely thing for that to ever happen let alone multiple times in my life and ill probably never encounter it again, and since i took my brains concerns seriously, it seemed to be more willing to actually let me believe that this time. I feel ...so much better and like a weights been lifted. I cant believe i just freaking did all this becasue i needed to make a meme so bad but honestly im so proud of myself, worth it. definitely reccomend it, I really wish someone had told me sooner that telling yourself what you learned from a situation and making it part of an uplifting narrative and that kind of thing is in fact, what it means to process trauma and that theres actually a definition for that and its not just wait around and hope your brain unfricks itself. i have a lot of work left to do on myself but i feel so much better... thanks to original poster for making a meme so good i had to make my own ver-)

Saw this post and immediately knew I had to make it Ford

(Og post under cut)

[young-mitali]

not carry on content but I made a little comic thing a week ago

posted this on my art insta @/astovestudio

[zyonsay]

Hey guys! I havent died yet :] Sorry for being inactive!

I’ve had loads of stuff going on lately. My mental health is declining and i basically have to fight my way through to finally get all my diagnoses. Im currently also kinda struggling with my grades and i urgently need to put more work into those. But its not just all bad news!

My band is having a concert tonight and im so excited. Also nervous. We also signed up for a competition in November, which would be my very first music competition. My band has won loads of stuff in the past but ever since covid we lost loads of members and thus had to bring in younger ones who dont play very good yet. Andddd im officially signed up for my first ever horse show! Im soooo nervous about it haha, but im excited to have some fun with my horse. Maybe we’ll even get on the Podium, who knows!

I feel like i owed yall a sort of explanation since my account has been very quiet for a while.. But yeah, i hope yall are doing amazing and i’ll get back to writing when i feel ready. Lots of Love, Zyon <3

[inky-goddess]

I dont wanna call myself a system, because my nurse practitioner told me im not (I brought my headmates up with my therapist, she said she isnt sure if it's anything yet and that if I think it's anything I should tell her) and i havent been diagnosed with anything but I do have headmates and I just kinda wanna talk about them because ive been holding back on talking about them because i feel like people will fake claim me since im not diagnosed- but Damien will not shut up about how stupid my fear of being fake claimed is so im gonna just introduce the headmates and get it over with and just hope it doesnt seem like im faking it (because i am so scared i am just faking it and seeing people get fake claimed makes me more scared that maybe I am just faking it)

ANYWAYS-

Ramona goes by they/them pronouns, is a feral homestuck, is an age regressor -regresses to ages 5-8, completely sfw age regression just like mine...if i even have talked about my regression on this blog, and their big age is 17, gay, Goatkin therian

Mindy goes by it/its and meow/meow's/meowself pronouns, is a catkin therian, if it isnt the one doing something stupid meow will hold someone else back from being stupid ("If I can't be stupid no one can" -something Mindy actually said), 16 years old, usually asleep, weirdcore bitch (affectionate), pan

Elaine goes by fae/faen pronouns, is a clown (affectionate), is actually one of the only responsible ones (Kaz being the other responsible one), 18 years old, lesbian

Damien goes by he/it pronouns, annoying as fuck we're like brothers but like- brothers in the same mind if that makes sense...we fight like siblings is what im trying to say, very immature, 19 years old, Bi

Moth goes by they/it pronouns, usually off reading some book about cryptids, a chaotic little shit, cryptidkin otherkin, 19 years old, Ace, runs @cryptid-watch-parks with me and Damien (I'm Mod Amaranth, Moth is Mod Moth (Obviously), and Damien is Mod Pico)

Kaz goes by he/they pronouns and kit/kit's/kitself pronouns, they are usually the one to act as mine and Ramona's caregiver when we're regressed, the other most responsible one, 18 years old, aroace

and then theres me, Sammiee/Crow/Raine whatever you wanna call me I go by many names. I go by it/they/he pronouns. You guys know me by now.

that's all my headmates...im still so scared to post this but Damien will not shut the fuck up about it.

anyways this will be my pinned for now while I work on prettying up my caard to have my side blogs and stuff so my new pinned wont be long as shit

since this will be my pinned: Basic DNI criteria. No anti-palestine people. No anti-otherkin or anti-therian people. No Dream stans/defenders. (if you like/liked the smp thats fine, just not the creator himself)

[dayz-ina-daze]

hey op your post about aita phone bill. i apologise if this is forward, please understand i am reaching out out of concern and not to upset you or be disrespectful at all. 🙏

your descriptions about your parents worry me as it sounds like they are engaging in abusive behaviour. i have chronic migraine and my parent did the same actions as your parent (dependent on them, feeling 'in debt' to parent for all the help they gave me ("i pay for all this, and i'm sick too"), guilted for spending maybe $30 on myself, etc) and it was only as i got older (23, 24) that i realised there was abuse.

but i also acknowledge our illnesses are different and that you are in a situation where you cannot yet be on your own and so have to 'make do'. please continue talking with your therapist because they may help come up with strategies to deal with some of the abuse-like behaviour that seems to be happening. once you have your chair, i strongly suggest you continue saving in case of emergency (in case you have to rush to move out or similar), i really hope things improve for you.

there are 'work from home' jobs online that you can do from a laptop/computer such as data entry or transcripting where you wont need to stand. if you havent already, i also suggest reaching out to others with pots who could provide help, tips, advice, and support and understanding of what you are going through. there are tumblr users with pots who trained their dog to alert them before an episode (so they dont faint/sit down before the episode), maybe there is a pots crowd fund to help you get your chair? is there somewhere we could donate to help you??

remember: do not let them guilt you into thinking you are broken or costing them 'their time, money, effort, life' etc... they are parents, they should be rising above that. it is not your fault illnesses cost money to treat, that disability is not often considered by others in the world - it is NOT your fault you are unwell 💖

I’m aware that I’m being abused… I’ve come to terms with it. It’s hard even accepting that, of course, because I love my parents, and most days they’re wonderful people… But I’ve had to learn that even if they’re good people, they aren’t good parents in the slightest, and I have to differentiate between the two. Perhaps even that isn’t true, but it’s just what I tell myself in the hopes that someday they’ll see all the damage they’ve done and feel remorse and regret.

Also as a byproduct of how I was raised, I physically can’t accept “handouts” — even if I know it’s for my own betterment. I want to work for what I earn, so I can never be accused of being lazy or a leech like my parents so often imply. My parents have a dog that’s already trained to be something of a diabetic alert dog, although unofficially, and he often alerts to me at times as well, though for different reasons related to my POTS (I’m hypoglycemic as well, plus fistfuls of other diagnoses). I’m still saving up, though what I have isn’t much. I have some support in place, and I’ve been trying to integrate myself into more POTS support systems (I lost almost an entire year of my life just to recovering from when it initially hit me, so I admit I’m a bit slow to the uptake), I’m reaching out to doctors and therapists and anyone who can help…

For now I just. Have to wait.

If you’re able to offer me even a penny, I’ve got KoFi and other money apps to that regard, and in return, I’m happy to provide sketches or full on art pieces of whatever you’d like!! Though I understand if some are hesitant to take those routes. My friends are coaxing me to the idea of starting a GoFundMe, but it feels like a “cheap” way out, and that I’m not able to pay back such kindness, so I’m hesitant. Like I said: I want to work for what I get, in any way I can.

And truly, thank you for this… It’s nice to hear I’m not crazy for thinking the way I’m treated is wrong. This didn’t upset me, but it surely made me cry just knowing that some strangers on the internet are so kind. Thank you, sincerely. <3

[bismuthburnsblue]

Hi! been a minute, huh? i forced a break from sewing for a month or so there, but im back, with a new "series" ive been calling Project Doctor in my head! you could also call it tackling my UFO's or flipping or anything like that, the fundamental point is im looking at projects that have things im not happy with, diagnosing the issues and fixing them!

this wasnt the project i thought i would be starting with, but i got a bee in my bonnet about this one today, down to even an outfit i could pair it with, so meet the victorian skirt! originally supposed to be a historically accurate (but midi) skirt, i made this just using the fabric i had, planning to cut it down, only to realise this was actually almost ankle length all said and done. i felt bad about cutting almost half of it off, but also i dont wear long skirts, and it wasnt long enough to be a proper length anyway. anyway 5 years later, here we are!

(please ignore all the creases, and i should note that this fabric is actually a really lovely brown dupioni, the pictures dont do it justice! i got it for free + it was pieces, which is why i initially cut it out the way i did)

i havent completely finalised my plan yet, but the intention is to rework this into a steampunk style skirt, with high low ruching at the front. i made some decisions at the time that i would definitely not make today (mostly, its flatlined in the name of historical accuracy but this fabric Doesnt need it) so i think the plan is going to be to completely rip it apart into its component pieces and redo everything from the beginning. kinda hurts to do but! i think its the right choice.

Im hoping making the skirt raised at the front will make it more wearable, and removing the extra layer will make it much lighter to wear. im also thinking about adding details to it, maybe a ruffle (i still have a little fabric) or some kind of fancier waistband (though ngl. i love my basic petersham waistband, she never lets me down, so. we will see) i may also remove some volume from the back, it depends on how it balances when its lighter.

[leafcabbage]

If you want to talk more about clingy duo and how they love each other,,, im very much willing to listen,,,, (also if you want to talk about drdi phil im also very interested, was looking at that recent drdi phil post like 👀)

im always happy to talk about BOTH and am preemptively putting a keep reading because i feel this may get long....

drdi clingyduo makes me more insane than i already am. and baybee im diagnosed. anyway... oh man what to say about them. i think one of the things that really gets me about them is that they were separated for like 4(? idk my own fic) years and when they were finally reunited and living together again they both decided they should just like.,.. pretend none of that happened and so they never got around to talking about the time they spent apart? like they straight up dont know things about each other from that time because theyve been pretending it doesn't exist. the healthiest way to handle things, really. tubbo was literally getting frantic payphone calls from tommy who was like actively in crisis and then he comes home and cries so hard about it he throws up and then theyre like "Awesome well tahts Over so we never have to talk about it yippee!!" (until sssd of course but thats only the start.)

like MAN they love each other so much but also neither of them entirely know how to go about things productively and healthily and they both feel like it should be enough that they are together again... and its NOT because they have to actually talk about things!!! makes me crazy.

as for drdi phil. man theres a lot there i havent figured out but i do know that he had his own rough shit in his childhood and he saw techno and went "i can like. do something here. i can help." and then he did. and he did a little blackmailing and maybe some insurance fraud to get the job done, but he did it. also he didn't mean to end up with wilbur in his care. that wasnt on purpose he wasnt ready to to any of that but he kind of stumbled into it due to circumstances. like my man is not foster care certified or anything. im gonna avoid saying more on that until im certain im not contradicting facts i laid out in past chapters, but also if wilbur said something out loud, he might have been lying at any given moment.

anyway all that to say. phil is like... really good at seeming like he has everything figured out when in reality hes constantly pretty sure hes two seconds from like spontaneously combusting. also hes a gamer btw. thats how he knows sneeg they are internet friends. i havent given enough weight to internet friends yet in this story so i will say that now. phil goes through a crazy day of teaching at a university he barely feels qualified to work at and comes home to a house he got for extra cheap rent because a guy died there and has dinner usually with his kid who he never planned to end up with and then puts on some headphones and plays fucking halo or something for five hours before going to bed and repeating it all the next day. what a hero

[dausy]

Between my dog and my FiL I'm a little nervous Nancy.

My FiL keeps trying to stroke out (literally) and my dog had me take her into the vet today. I need people to behave. I have non-refundable tickets.

Edie gave me a bit of a scare though. She's had an occasional cough since we moved here and its always sounded more like she was trying to cough up something stuck in her mouth rather than a cough. Which makes since because my backyard was so full of stickers. In particular there are this fuzzy ones that get stuck in your clothes. She has a favorite ball that is just riddled with them and I bet they're getting stuck in her throat. This city just sucks for dogs. But I saw a video about the dog respiratory virus thats going around and they were like "heres what a dog cough can look like" and its that same stuck-in-throat noise my dog makes. Now she had kennel cough as a puppy and those coughs were like human coughs. Obviously from the lung type coughs. But I'm not diagnosing my dog with a resp. virus. Again, she's had this cough since we moved into this house and it notably happens when we go outside and play. She's fine otherwise. But I don't want to take her to the boarding facility and the people there be like "YOUR DOG HAS A COUUUUGH!"

however, the primary reason we went to the vet was because over the weekend I went to lift her up onto the couch and got nasty peepee on my hand. Now even though we havent been to the groomers in a while, me getting peepee on my hand is abnormal. She normally has clean butt fluff. It happened a second time and then a third time I went to wipe her after one potty break and it just was not a normal pee consistency. So now I'm afraid she has a UTI. Luckily today at work was a half day and I announced I was leaving to try and take my dog to a walk in clinic.

We have yet to find a PCP veterinarian since living here and the last vet I took her to in October, I didnt care for them. Theres one clinic nearish my house that only does walk ins (its not an ER) so we went to it because I, again, dont want to take her to the boarding facility with an active infection and I don't have time to make an appointment. I actually really liked the vet I met there. It was a nice facility too.

but they went to go get a urine specimen and pulled me back to their back area and grabbed an ultrasound and told me they found something suspicious in her bladder. They said they were concerned because they weren't sure what it was. It didn't look like stones but they said it was weird. Ended up doing Xrays (now I wanna especially because I mentioned this cough) to make sure theres no apparent tumors anywhere. The xray didn't show anything. Maybe she has some sediment or sludge in her bladder. We're going to start her on antibiotics and treat it like a UTI which I'm supposed to pick up tomorrow (somehow) and follow up in a couple weeks to see if we have any results.

Like..girl..no..stop..My husbands going to wake up to that credit card bill like "what happen?" especially because the boarding facility already took out a deposit. Dogs are expensive, don't get dogs.

[rotisseries]

important for plot, scotts house got a drive by. and his mom was shot, and mason, and scotts dad, and lydia. so liam's upset because even though scott and liam and malia are werewolves and can heal from gunshot wounds THERE WERE HUMANS IN THE HOUSE. AND THEY DIDNT CARE. and also liam is just like. mad. thats his pack, his family his best friend. next time we see liam, hes pushing gabe on the floor in the locker room at school and gabe is like "i dont know anything i swear😰 i dont know what happened at scotts house" liam know he lying, so he picks him up by the collar and hes like "did you know who was there? DID YOU KNOW MASON WAS IN THERE?" "no no i didnt know anything . i Dont know anything." liam turns him around and smushes his face on the mirror over the sink. "maybe you havent noticed lately, but ive been having trouble controlling my anger, when things happen to my friends i just cant seem to help it." and gabe is like "no liam wait please" and hes like "I just get so ANGRY" and the mirror starts to crack by how hard he's holding gabe's face against the mirror. ans gabe is like "stop liam wait please" and blood is starting to drip on the sink and hes gripping the edge of it. and liam just presses harder and hes like "you think imma going to kill you?" AND WE CAN SEE THEO SHOW UP IN THE MIRROR BEHIND LIAM. its all cracked and weird but its theo and his annoying ass crossed arm stance. liam doesnt notice him yet "You think we're all killers? maybe we should be." and theo pipes up with: "you really gonna kill him?" and we can see liam turn around, surprised, and all of the blood thats dripping off gabe on the mirror and how much pressure liams applied because its all spiderweb cracks. and theo goes "i mean... idc if you do.🤷 but have you thought this through?" and liam turns back to gabe. "any idea where you're gonna dump the body?" ans it cuts to gabes HORRIFIED FACE NOT REALIZING THEO IS ACTUALLY INADVERTENTLY TRYING TO GET LIAM NOT TO KILL GABE. "but no one saw you grab him .. did they? cause that could be a problem." and liam pushes gabes head further and says "i dont care." and theo shrugs and says "i dont care either. but at least let me help. im the one with experience here. if we kill him, we'll have to find the witnesses and kill them too. which meannss we're gonna need shovels, some plastic bags, maybe a chainsaw..." GABES HORRIFIED FACE AGAIN😭😭 ans liam gives gabe one last push before he lets go and gabe falls back on the ground. liam looks up at the cracked and bloody mirror with his fangs out. and you can tell he already feels terrible. for even considering it. for even considering being the monster he looks. and immediately the anger melts away ans he softly says, "you made your point." two things of note. THEO DOESNT FUCKING GO TO SCHOOL WHY IS HE THERE. DID HE JUST GET A LIAM SENSE. LIKE OOPS MY ENEMY TURNED KINDA FRIEND IS ABOUT TO MAKE A BAD DECISION AND HIS ANGER IS OFF THR CHARTS LEMME HELP??? also love how he was like. lemme help with the murder, ive got experience😎. other thing if note, when liam first became a werewolf, scott told him that being a werewolf doesnt mean he has to be a monster, it doesnt mean he has to do bad things he can still choose to do good, just like when he was a full human. just thought i'd tell you. scott would be so disappointed if he lost his anger like that and killed someone. and he just cant stand that. he was so afraid of his parents finding out about his werewolfism because he was scared they were gonna look at him how they did when he wrecked and keyed his coaches car and got diagnosed with IED. he was so scared of that look in their eyes. of being looked at like that. 

personally I think gabe shoulda died but maybe that's just me

[princess-of-the-corner]

NO ABSOLUTELY CUTIE MARKS AND QUIRKS ARE THE SAME THING i had this idea for a fic for FOREVER that instead of instantly getting slapped with the quirkless diagnosis what if the midoriyas went to a doctor that was was just like 'yeah idk maybe he just hasn't met the activation requirements for it. some quirks are weirdly specific yknow' and so inko looks for a solution and finds a local club for kids whose quirks havent obviously shown up yet to try new things and sends izuku to join and its the cutie mark crusaders. the other three kids are the cutie mark crusaders. baby izuku as a cutie mark crusader getting into all their weird shenanigans where they try to find out what their special talent quirk is

YEAH YEAH YEAH LIKE

I 100% plan to go into this during the next arc in CC, but Quirks are Complicated and it's hard to write someone off as Quirkless.

Izuku is a good example! Both in my AU and Canon's cover story!

Because my AU has 'Izuku inherited his bio dad's Quirk' as a plotline but he never realized because he rarely meets the circumstances to activate it! And the few times he /did/ activate it he pretty immediately negated it!

And then his cover story for OfA is that it only recently manifested. Which makes sense! If OfA was Izuku's base Quirk, that's not something that would be set off easily! It makes sense that it's only activated once he tries fistfighting a giant robot!

There are other characters who could have met this Qualifiaction too. Himiko is a good example! She was always kinda bloodthirsty, but if she never gave in and drank someone else's blood, she'd never know she could turn into people by drinking their blood.

Or like. Ya know how a lot of our elementals have resistences to their own element? There could totally be someone who doesn't have the elemental control but is fireproof/ice resistant/shockproof/can breathe underwater but never tested it because who the fuck is going to try that if they don't know they can?

And like. The thing I'm gonna address is that it is really hard and next to impossible to actually test for being Quirkless because of the fact that some Quirks are subtle or only activate in specific circumstances.

And I still jsut. Just.

With Izuku's case in particular.

The doctor who diagnosed Izuku as Quirkless is the guy who /works for AfO/.

This doctor and AfO already have a habit of taking people, including kids, and either using them for Nomu fodder or grooming them into villains.

Idk man I just think that him working as a Quirk-diagnosing pediatrician in an area that seems incredibly biased against Quirkless children MIGHT be for ulterior motives.

But also yeah there should totally have been some sort of Quirk version of the CMC.

[whoreishghost]

i really am despairing and just hopeless in a way that i genuinely dont think ive been before and its rlly fucking with me. like, by all acounts, i am More supported than i have been before, and thats almost part of the problem? i feel ungrateful for feeling So Bad. i don't do Anything, i dont attend uni, i dont write my essays, i dont have a job, i dont clean my flat, i dont rlly cook a lot. of the things that Have to happen so we can continue to live in this flat, or i can continue to access medical services so my life doesnt get worse: those things are often put off way past the last minute and i need a lot of support to do at all. also, rn my life is mostly just calling A Service TM, getting a bullshit response, complaining, calling again, finally getting through to someone who knows whats going on, complaining, rinse repeat. ITS EXHAUSTING! not only that but sitting every day in bed or at my desk refreshing tumblr or staring at my screen saver thinking to myself 'what am i going to do?' and coming to the conclusion of nothing because i have nothing to do, i enjoy nothing, i want nothing, i cant concentrate long enough on anything or process information well enough to do things Anyway. ykw its not even true i dont Want to do anything. i do. i Want to write my essays, on some level i am genuinely interested in the topics. i just Cant. i want to read. i've been pretty keen on reading complaint by sarah ahmed for a while now or maybe rereading whipping girl or even giving notes on suicide another go? but i cant make myself start because i Know that i wont get far and its so fucking depressing. im getting so high, the come down is genuinely distressing because of how scrambled and disorganised my brain becomes and i become so afraid i will be like that forever. and yet i do it EVERY DAY! im struggling extremely badly with some interpersonal shit that has completely destroyed any self esteem or confidence i had in my appearance and my worth. add onto that that i am a massive Massive financial drain and even if i wasnt our finances are just.. Bad? so i was like, ok, fssw time again, that wont be too bad, i can do that. and then i fucking set up by whore phone and downloaded the grindr apk (and it was fucking horrible and evil to do and i hate that evil horrible useless phone) (also did u know u need to send in id for age verification on google now? 101 internet safety says to not do that are u crazy?) and started getting dms and i wanted to cry i got so overwhelmed. like idk if i can do it, but like.. i kinda gotta? idk man. im trying to see things positively? like, i got the form for the work capability assessment and spent all of yesterday photocopying medical letters which detail diagnoses and assessments and reference hospitilisations, etc but also the dwp are evil so who knows if its enough? im trying to get my pip reevaluated but they havent even sent me the Form for that yet? so again! who! knows! i feel like im in beurocracy hell and i cant leave? my uni are trying to work with me, but multuple medical professionals have told me to interrupt or drop out and like if people who are meant to be like have something in your life to keep you going dont think i can do it, what chance do i have of Actually doing it? i dont know what to do anymore.

[miintlxtte]

jesus christ that’s a lot but okay

I assume this is how you play?

1. whats your favorite thing in your room? this is a good question, probably my stuffed animals

2. how tall do you wish you were? like, 5’5? 5’6?

3. what color is your hair? dirty blonde

4. whats a rare fear that you have? worms. I cannot fucking stand them. it’s the way they move why is itlikethatstopittheyFUCKINGMULTIPLY

5. are you single? no

6. has your heart ever been broken? yes

7. what was your favorite thing as a kid? organizing my toys, and owls.

8. favorite coping mechanism? rocking :3 or denying it

9. whats your favorite love language? okay idk if this is receiving but I show it as gift giving/words of affirmation, and I like receiving quality time and words of affirmation!

10. how often do you get nervous? all the fucking time (diagnosed generalized anxiety core <3)

11. if you had three wishes, would you use them? yes

12. if you could be fluent in any language which one would it be? assuming I can keep my current language (english), sign language if it counts, otherwise French so I can ace it in school or Japanese

13. where do you wish to live? canada or something idk

14. what's something surprising about you? i’m not that interesting

15. when did you last shower? last night

16. when did you first join tumblr? shit idk I believe early this year MAYBE late last year i’m baby to this app

17. do you want any tattoos? if so, where, what, and why? okay Im getting one on my arm, matching with my dad; every night we say “I love you to the moon…” “…and back” so that’s what we are getting, and i’ll probably get a semicolon at some point.

18. whats the most prominent dream youve had? it was this horrifying lucid dream where I told my 2 best friends it was a dream and one turned into a demon the other tried to gaslight me. haunts me.

19. whats your dream job? i want to run my own salon or do something with physiology, but I think i’ll be a school counselor

20. whats your ideal date? ok ok ok picnic, secluded spot of a park, watch the sunset, painting. (all of those at once ofc)

21. what do you wish you could do better? play tennis i’m so bad at itttt

22. what country would you live in if you could? I have no clue

23. whos the best person you know? I know too many cool people for that. let’s go Z, M, J, R, C?

24. have you ever walked into something you shouldnt have? 🙁

25. whats your favorite holiday? christmas..I just love the vibes of it man

26. when have you been most embarrassed? I don’t wanna talk about it 😞

27. whats your favorite halloween costume? last year I did kuromi, kinda cool tbh

28. what are you best at? I think i’m good at acting, I can cry on demand and shit (without touching my eyes at all)

29. do you know how to tie your shoes? YES?????????????? WHO IS ON TUMBLR BUT CANT TIE THERE SHOE (unless disabled, obviously)

30. do you have siblings? ya, older sister

31. if you could know one thing about the future what do you wanna know? if I still know my current friends well

32. whats a dealbreaker for you? if they use any of the following as insults genuinely : gay, autistic, retard

33. whats your favorite current class? i’m a fucking nerd so like math or art

34. how many people have you dated? 3 technically but i’m gonna say 2

35. how often do you wash your hair? daily, it’s otherwise a total mess

36. do you daydream? what about? yes, I actually cannot share what

37. where do you go to be alone? my room, lol

38. which parent do you like more? you can’t do this to me bro

39. whats the one standard you hold yourself to? you can feel whatever, but you can’t take your emotions out on people.

40. whos voice do you enjoy? my girlfriends 🤧

41. if you could announce one thing to the world what would it be? “ur mom” or something really deep.

42. whats one thing you wanna do but havent yet? go zip lining!

43. what do you wish you never did? I wish I never left that sleepover

44. do you believe in life after death? nah, not really

45. do you prefer book over movie? I get too bored with both, lets go book tho.

46. whats your favorite season? summerrrr

47. whats your favorite time of day? midnight, or like, 3 am, or 2 pm

48. do you have a beloved stuffed animal? my pink bear! he’s like 2 or 3 feet tall, I won him at a fair, i’ve had him since I was shorter than him. (I think you can guess what he looks like)

49. whens a time you wish you acted differently? oh there’s so many, lets go with my tennis awards banquet last week.

50. what's something you wish that you never bought? this one pen that broke the NEXT DAY. still angry. {its been 3 years}

51. do you have your own room? yep

52. whats your favorite book? under my reading level ofc, but the someday suitcase makes me so emotional

53. who's someone you hate? this girl, K, who has feet pics of everyone, hits my best friend, and says L to serious shit.

54. whats your best hottake? it doesn’t matter what pronouns 10 year old emily uses, an this is form someone who actually can’t use neopronouns and just uses they or there name, how the actual FUCK does it effect you

55. whats your favorite game? probably any of these : sally face, fran bow, little misfortune, there is no game 2

56. whens a time you felt real genuine fear? when I was trying to shower and my sister banged on the door screaming and crying hitting so hard the room shook is one instance.

57. are you a morning person? absolutely not

58. do you drink enough water? …….

59. how different are you from the little kid you used to be? very

60. do you enjoy tumblr? yes

61. have you ever had a tumblr experience that made you wanna delete the app? nah not yet lol

62. whats your least favorite game? uh, idk

63. were you a markiplier fan? no

64. how do you respond to compliments? *nervouse giggle*

65. whats something that would make you fall in love? free bread

66. do you believe in marriage? eh I probably won’t get married

67. do you have a crush on someone? yesnt

68. do you like tumblr? mhm!

69. were you a voltron stan? who?

70. whats your favorite ship? ugh okay so any of these : huskerdust (hazbin), hananene (tbhk), oneminexotori (komi)

71. whats your favorite song? I don’t have one atm, sorry

72. do you like loud crowds? NO WAY

73. have you ever created conflict on purpose? well duhhh

74. how do you sleep? I don’t

75. do you bite your lips? yes :’)

76. do you use chapstick? ofc

77. do you have any pets? yes, dog named marley!

78. what color are your eyes?hazel

79. what's something you wish you could change about yourself? my stomach

80. have you ever had surgery? no thank god, might end up having to for my scoliosis

81. whats your least favorite animal? I don’t have one

82. whats somethina that voure really bad at? speaking. I stutter. it has actually led me to accidentally curse in front of my teachers and on top of that say a fucking SLUR. words don’t work right :( /srs

84. do you have an sqishmellows? mhm! a lot, hello kitty ones too!

85. do you enjoy fast food? yes

86. do you like soda? affirmative

87. what grade are you in? N/A

88. do you wear any jewelry? yes, mainly bracelets and necklaces!

89. what socials do you use? tumblr pinterest yt discord

90. whats your lowest grade in school right now? a D in band (don’t ask)

91. whats the latest youve stayed up till? 6 am

92. did you ever have bangs? yes

93. what trends did you hate? hot take but clean girl makeup

94. whats your favorite item of clothing? ohhh, my zip up hoodies

95. do you like dinosaurs? YESYESYES

96. whats your opinion on body hair? natural and gorgeous

97. whats your least favorite time? 12:21 pm

98. do you make a wish at 11:11? yes

99. do you have your phone on military or regular? military, suck it up losers

100. have you ever been to church? I used to go, yeah

101. are you Igbta? NOOOOOOOOOOOO (yes)

ask game

1. whats your favorite thing in your room?

2. how tall do you wish you were?

3. what color is your hair?

4. whats a rare fear that you have?

5. are you single?

6. has your heart ever been broken?

7. what was your favorite thing as a kid?

8. favorite coping mechanism?

9. whats your favorite love language?

10. how often do you get nervous?

11. if you had three wishes, would you use them?

12. if you could be fluent in any language which one would it be?

13. where do you wish to live?

14. what’s something surprising about you?

15. when did you last shower?

16. when did you first join tumblr?

17. do you want any tattoos? if so, where, what, and why?

18. whats the most prominent dream youve had?

19. whats your dream job?

20. whats your ideal date?

21. what do you wish you could do better?

22. what country would you live in if you could?

23. whos the best person you know?

24. have you ever walked into something you shouldnt have?

25. whats your favorite holiday?

26. when have you been most embarrassed?

27. whats your favorite halloween costume?

28. what are you best at?

29. do you know how to tie your shoes?

30. do you have siblings?

31. if you could know one thing about the future what do you wanna know?

32. whats a dealbreaker for you?

33. whats your favorite current class?

34. how many people have you dated?

35. how often do you wash your hair?

36. do you daydream? what about?

37. where do you go to be alone?

38. which parent do you like more?

39. whats the one standard you hold yourself to?

40. whos voice do you enjoy?

41. if you could announce one thing to the world what would it be?

42. whats one thing you wanna do but havent yet?

43. what do you wish you never did?

44. do you believe in life after death?

45. do you prefer book over movie?

46. whats your favorite season?

47. whats your favorite time of day

48. do you have a beloved stuffed animal?

49. whens a time you wish you acted differently?

50. what’s something you wish that you never bought?

51. do you have your own room?

52. whats your favorite book?

53. who’s someone you hate?

54. whats your best hottake?

55. whats your favorite game?

56. whens a time you felt real genuine fear?

57. are you a morning person?

58. do you drink enough water?

59. how different are you from the little kid you used to be?

60. do you enjoy tumblr?

61. have you ever had a tumblr experience that made you wanna delete the app?

62. whats your least favorite game?

63. were you a markiplier fan?

64. how do you respond to compliments?

65. whats something that would make you fall in love?

66. do you believe in marriage?

67. do you have a crush on someone?

68. do you like tumblr?

69. were you a voltron stan?

70. whats your favorite ship?

71. whats your favorite song?

72. do you like loud crowds?

73. have you ever created conflict on purpose?

74. how do you sleep?

75. do you bite your lips?

76. do you use chapstick?

77. do you have any pets?

78. what color are your eyes?

79. what’s something you wish you could change about yourself?

80. have you ever had surgery?

81. whats your least favorite animal?

82. whats something that youre really bad at?

83. do you have an sqishmellows?

84. do you enjoy fast food?

85. do you like soda?

86. what grade are you in?

87. do you wear any jewelry?

88. what socials do you use?

89. whats your lowest grade in school right now?

90. whats the latest youve stayed up till?

91. did you ever have bangs?

92. what trends did you hate?

93. whats your favorite item of clothing?

94. do you like dinosaurs?

95. whats your opinion on body hair?

96. whats your least favorite time?

97. do you make a wish at 11:11?

98. do you have your phone on military or regular?

99. have you ever been to church?

100. are you lgbtq?

[megan-loves-surveys]

#48.

You know the drill.

About you Name: Megan. Country: New Zealand. Age: 37. Gender(s): Female. Height: 5'3". weight: Not saying. eye color: Green. skin color: White. Heritage: Kiwi, Scottish, Irish, English. Relationship status: Taken. Are you physically healthy? Not really. My shoulder is still pretty fucked up, and I get migraines. Are you mentally healthy? Yes. Job?: Admin assistant. school: None.

Favs: Animal: Cats. Flower: Don't really have one. Movie: None in particular. TV show: Raw. Music: Pop. Band: Blue or Five. Video Game: Pokémon in general, but right now I'm addicted to Crime Scene Cleaner xD Gaming Console: My laptop lol. Name: May. Person: My boyfriend.

Love life: 1: Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yep. 2: Do you love them? Yep. 3: Are you still in love with an ex? Hell no. 4: How many people have you dated? Maybe a dozen. 5: Do you think you'll get married? No. 6: Have you ever been emotionally/physically abused in a relationship? No. 7: Have you ever hurt your partner by accident without knowing it? Like physically? No. Emotionally? Maybe. 8: Whats important to you in a relationship? Having fun, honesty, loyalty. 9: Do you have to see them everyday? ( or hear from them) I don't have to see my boyfriend everyday, but we do at least talk or text everyday. 10: Do you think you can love someone within 2 weeks? No.

Friendship and Family: 1: How many friends do you have? Enough. 2: What type of friend are you? Hmm, hard to say. 3: Have you ever been friends with someone for longer than 7 years? Oh yah. My BFF and I have been friends for 22 years! 4: Do you have one best friend, more or none? One, but also a lot of really good friends. 5: Have you ever had a friend just stop being your friend and you never knew why? Yes. 6: Do you get along with family? I don't see most of them that much. 7: Do you have a family member you hate? No. 8: Does your family accept who you are? Yes. 9: Are you an only child or have siblings? Only child. 10: Do you have parents that still live together? No.

Health 1: Do you need to lose or gain weight? Lose. 2: Have you ever had the swine flu? (H1n1) Not that I know of. 3: Do you like to go to the doctors? No. Who does? 4: Have you ever puked in school or at work? No. 5: Have you ever been extremely sick where you couldnt even leave your bed? Yes. 6: Do you hate puking or does it make you feel better? I HATE it. 7: Have you ever coughed up blood? No. 8: Should you be eating healthier ? Probably lol. 9: Do you lie to your doctor? No. 10: Have you ever taken too much advils? No.

Mental Health: 1: Do you have a mental illness? I have some anxiety but that's about it. 2: Do you take anti-depressants? No. 3: Are you mentally stable? Mostly. 4: Have you ever been misdiagnosed? No. 5: Do you think you have an disorder but havent been properly diagnosed yet? No. 6: Is self diagnosing good or bad? Bad. 7: Should we give more money to mental health research? Yes. 8: Do you think everyone has a chance to over come their mental disorders? I'd like to think so. 9: Would you ever not date someone if they had a severe disorder? ( Schizophrenia,BPD, mood disorders) Depends how they manage it. 10: Does mental illness run in your family? No.

SEX 1: Virgin? No. 2: what age did you lose it? 14. 3: Did you take sex ed? Yep. Mainly at intermediate school and the first year of high school. 4: Does size matter? No, it's how you use it. 5: Whats your favorite poistions? Girl on top but the guy is still in control, doggy, on the guy's lap etc. 6: Does virginity exist? Well, yes. 7: Do you think sex is overated? Hell no. If you think it is, you ain't doing it right. 8: Is making love and fucking different? Yes. 9: Is it important for both genders to understand eachothers bodies? Of course. 10: If someone was a virgin and was raped, did they lose their virginity? Yes, unfortunately.

Check the box: 1.My hair color is: [] Brown [] Black [] Blonde []Red [x] Funky colors [] Auburn [x] more than one color 2.Eye color: []Blue []Grey []Brown []Light brown []dark brown [x]green []amber [] I have two different colors of eyes 3.I am a : []Male [x] Female []Trans Male [] Trans Female []Gender Fluid [] I dont have a gender []Non Binary [] other 4: I am: []Fit [x] Average []Skinny []Fat 5: I love my : [x]Hair [x]Eyes []Smile []Teeth []Skin []everything about myself []None of these 6: I hate my: []Hair []eyes []smile []teeth []skin [] everything about myself [x] I dont hate anything about myself (except my stomach! lol) 7: My feet are: [x]Small []Wide []Narrow []long []large []Ugly []Pretty 8: I have a hard time: []Finding something to wear []Making Friends [x] making food []staying focused 9: I am: [x]Employed []Not employed []retired []I can't work []Self employed []Looking for a job 10: I love: []the moon []the sun []the stars []our galaxy []planets

Bold what is true: I am Funny I am a girl I have no hair I have curly hair ^ I hate it I have straight hair I have a dog I have a cat I have both I love to get drunk I don't drink I love to smoke weed but i hate smoking cigarettes I love both I rather have one best friend than 20 friends who i am not close with My dad died My mom died My parents are both dead My parents are alive I like to touch my bruises I have funny teeth I love Mcdonalds fries Sometimes when Im alone I sing as loud as I can even if i cant sing I believe in God I believe in the butterfly affect I hate video games I wish I was taller I can't understand math I am very good at writing an essay I never had sex before I love Mac N Cheese I love Disney Movies I prefer Dreamswork over Walt Disney I am going to College I finished college I wish I went to college I hate my job I am the boss at my job I have a feelings for a friend but i cant tell them because it would ruin our friendship ^ I have feelings and i told them I wish soda was healthy I sleep with the window opened This survey was too long

How has covid affected you? I've had Covid a few times before, it sucked and lasted forever. My city was also in lockdown for months in 2020 and 2021.

What is a comfort show of yours ? Big Bang or Simpsons.

Are you open about your past or do you not let anyone in? Depends which part of it.

Favourite fast food joint? KFC.

Do you think we were put on this earth for a reason? I guess.

What is something you have done this year you’re proud of? Kept going to the gym regularly.

Do u ever feel like surveys are usually the same questions? They can be.

What were you doing 10 years ago? Not much tbh.

Do you call out Karen’s when they’re harassing a cashier? Depends.

Animal crossing , yay or nay? Never played it.

Why do you like to do surveys? Cos I'm bored usually when I do them.

Did you ever have a MySpace ? No, my internet was too sucky to load any pages lol.

Do you think breaks are toxic in a relationship? Yes, you're not Ross & Rachel lol. People still argue over that to this day, it's too confusing and messy.

Do you have a YouTube channel? If no , would you create one? If yes what’s your content? I do, but I only upload the occasional concert video to it.

Are you a math person? Not at all, I have that maths dyslexia.

What’s the worse thing someone has said to you? I don't know about all time, but yesterday some woman called my Mum and I "racist white cunts" cos we wouldn't give her money. Then she complained about us as we ignored her saying that cos she was Maori and we were white, we thought we were better than her and that we were "privileged". Like fuck off lady, you're not entitled to our money :/

Have you ever befriended someone because you felt bad? No.

Would you ever date someone online? No lol, I prefer my relationships in person xD

Have you been ghosted before? Would you ghost someone? Yes.

When do you think things will be normal again? They mostly are.

Do you watch anime? I only ever watched Pokémon a bit as a kid.

Biggest goal you wanna reach before 2020 is over ? Oh, this survey is old lol. I'll answer for 2024, I want to just keep going to the gym.

How old did/do you turn this year? 37.

Do you like tiktok? No, I won't ever download that dumb app.

Do you ever miss vine? No.

How are you doing, seriously? Pretty good, though I woke up with a slight headache. Annoying!

Is there someone you want to talk to but you know you can’t? No.

Do you make jokes to cope with your problems? Sometimes.

Have you ever had someone call you their best friend but you didn’t even consider them a close friend? Yes :/ I never told them otherwise cos it would have crushed them.

Have you ever dealt with a pathological liar? No.

Long or short surveys? Both.

If ur in school , are you doing it on zoom or in class? -

Would you ever have a pet rat? Oh, I wish. I love rats, but my Mum is terrified of him so I can never have one while I live with her.

Favourite memory with your best friend? Oh, so many! A lot of our best nights out xD

Favourite type of content to watch on YouTube? Pokemon, wrestling, drama/gossip etc. Right now I'm into scambaiting videos.

Are you allergic to anything serious? Antibiotics, dunno what'll happen if I have to take them again. They give me diarrhea, rashes and make me feel ill.

Dream job? Traveling the world lol.

Do you think dreams mean anything? Who knows, I dream about packing bags and suitcases a lot for some reason. They say that means you have the urge to travel and experience new things...

Fav clothing brand? Dunno.

Do you miss anyone? Yes.

A) What does the last text you sent say? And to whom? I texted my boyfriend, he was asking me if I was going to the gym, I replied saying yes. B) What does the last text you recieved say? And from whom? See above lol. C) What time do you wake up most mornings? Depends - if I'm working, then around 7am. If I'm not, then between 9am and 11am. D) Are you afraid of walking alone at night? Depends. E) What do you do to relax at the end of a stressful day? Play video games, listen to music, chat to my bf etc. F) Where did your last kiss take place and with whom? My boyfriend, when I left his house last night. G) Do/did you get into trouble a lot at school? Not at all, I think I only got detention 2 or 3 times. H) Do you enjoy your job? If unemployed, are you content being so? Yeah, my job's great. Mainly cos of my coworker and boss, plus what I do is different everyday. I) Do you often pick up on double entendres and innuendos? Yes. J) Have you ever been offered drugs but declined? Yep, I always so no, even to weed. K) Have you ever met someone who has completely altered your way of thinking? No. L) Have you ever been offered drugs and accepted? No. M) Tell us something weird that turns you on. How long you got? My list of kinks is a mile long and there's some very weird ones in there. N) When did someone last admit romantic or sexual feelings for you? Was the feeling mutual? My boyfriend hahah. O) What is something you have given a lot of thought to lately? Dunno. P) When did you last swallow your beliefs to avoid an argument or confrontation? The other day. Q) Do you usually initiate hugs? Depends on the person. R) Are you a very affectionate person? I can be. S) Can you roll your own cigarettes? I don't smoke. T) What are you looking forward to? A few things. U) Do you have any tattoos. Do you want any/more? No. V) Are you mentally strong? Yes W) Are you physically strong? Not at all, my shoulder is fucked up. X) Do you think you’re a good person? I try to be! Y) Name one thing you wish you could change about your life right now. Flatter stomach and less migraines. Z) What do you usually eat for breakfast? Nothing, I usually skip it.